Silverescent

declutter the difference

Dania — Mon, 03 Aug 2009 11:18:31 +0000

o damn i forgot to make updates again xD hey guys sorry to keep ya wondering whats new and stuff – i’ve been preoccupied with so many tasks this summer – theres so much behind the scenes than whats on the website. after much consideration i’ve decided to get myself a digital camera with my upcoming birthday money. the year at university i will concentrate on building up contacts with other societies and getting recognised properly! this decision has come to surface after taking my little sister to london zoo. the camera i had wasn’t the best in the range, and was about 3-4 years old so it wasn’t so great – though after capping the camera memory with so many snaps i managed to get some beautiful snaps of the secluded wildlife caged, and on display in a beautiful and remarkably amazing shots! i’ll update the gallery after this post

so what have i been up to? i’ve made a group on the flyforfame forum called The Artist Alliance – which had preoccupied my ‘internet’ time with the logo contest, and the first ever signature of the week which i had hosted last week. heres the winner for the signature of the week contest:

notice we’ve finally managed to agree on a logo for the artist alliance (upper corner left the letters ‘AA’). the logo was made by the one and only – deformed! it was quite exciting seeing what the whole group came up with as a whole, and despite going off-track (original idea was to make an avatar/userbar) but the outcome was stunning and truly inspirational.

other than that, i’ve been doing over-time, i went nottingham to fully move out of my flat, and bring my bike home. i’ve also joined the gym because i’m just over-stressing and i need adrenaline to keep me sane. i hate my job, i’m going to quit and concentrate on whats coming soon – the summer exams, and next year’s prep.

heres something Chelle made for me, (which i then cleaned up and coloured) thank you Chelle <3

In the end it doesn’t really matter

Dania — Thu, 16 Jul 2009 00:25:18 +0000

whats the point of life? why do we have to work hard? anything we earn to live is all lost when you die, so nothing really ever belongs to you. you cannot really claim anything to be truly yours. you study to get a good job, you strive everyday to work to get paid, to belong somewhere… but really – what guarantees your efforts to be awarded? is this life all for nothing? everything is a test, everything is a challenge, all your actions, all your efforts are what you make.. but for what purpose would you do this in this life? i feel like i’m losing faith.. in myself. nothing is ever going great, its just been one disappointment after another.

i sometimes find myself so annoyed with my current job, my current stress of whats to come it brings me down so much to the point of hating what i do. i don’t want to hurt people, i don’t want to feel this way, i don’t want this to constantly shadow me no matter where i go, what i do – its like having a huge weight pulling you down, constantly reminding you of whats to come, whats to be expected, and it keeps you stressed, and anxious with a broken smile. i’m not like this normally, i’m hating where all this stress is giving me, and i’m not enjoying the anxiety from this..

i’m now finding myself worrying about things which i havent worried about before, such as my weight, my friends, even my own family. i feel like i’ve been betrayed by so many people, broken up into little pieces that cannot be refitted again. i feel like i’ve got no one to talk to, all these things that keep bottling up inside, i keep pretending that i’m fine, i keep so many stuff inside… but the thing is.. i’m not fine. i’m not okay with whats going on. i’m not okay with whats to come. i’m not okay at all. this is just making me upset, i’m gonna stop here.

Leading the way

Dania — Thu, 09 Jul 2009 00:19:46 +0000

Yesterday I saw the most remarkable thing ever in a very long time – we saw an eagle eating its pray right outside our window! To my amazement, I didn’t know eagles actually live in England as they are normally found in Scotland… A fully obese and yet poor pigeon was eaten on our front garden lawn.

It was all great and remarkable to watch as the eagle ate its meal right from the comfort of my home, then left nothing but a pile of feathers and chipped bones on the grass… that messy eater!!!

Another thing to note was the poor resolution on my camera… I tried to snap this beautiful bird so many times, but Sony cybershot failed every time. The digital zoom fucked up the image, and even my phone camera produced incredibly poor and grainy images despite its high megapixels… my next project would most likely be, to get a Nikon camera for moments like this… this way I can actually Photoshop a nice and crisp photo – this up there is heavily photoshop’d to bring out the details and despecle the damn grainess… time consuming work…

I suppose I can say that I’ve almost finished dad’s project… it’s been a wonderful experience. Here’s a signature I made earlier today:

ITS OVER 9000!!

Dania — Tue, 07 Jul 2009 00:03:53 +0000

few days ago i committed the unspeakable, facebook blocked my account from posting wall comments as i kept spamming OVER 9000!!! everywhere! i basically took ‘wall rape’ to the next level – it was quite funny how so many people joined in and spammed along my status, it was great fun!

i’m loving how this website is developing into… i’ve got so much more stuff to do but its looking promising and far more interactive

i’ve cleaned up my webspace further – including all the unnecessary stats and weird looking pages and broken links (though i know theres still a few left here too..)

i’ve also tried out a few more themes, but they seem to contain small glitches in padding, which make them useless here.. though some features they contain definately is worth tweaking and decoding.. which gives me an idea: perhaps after i’m done with killing these templates, i can make some tutorials or to explain what the hell i’m talking about to you guys.. so at least you get to learn along with me

i’ve been asked to make tutorials for my artwork on so many countless occassions.. but the thing is.. everything i know, is available on any other typical photoshop tutorial website, so whats the point? i feel that if i make you guys some resources, it would be far more beneficial for you guys.

another thing i’m working on are stock images – grouping and submitting high res. stock of various themes. these are coming soon, for now please do keep the great suggestions coming – you can now use the guestbook, and comment features so please don’t hesitate to post!

now to finish off, heres something really cute i finished earlier:

Comments & guestbook are open to public!

Dania — Mon, 06 Jul 2009 20:43:29 +0000

after much consideration, i’ve decided to make membership as an optional way to keep updated. now for you guys who hated to sign up to things, you can comment how much ever you want, just don’t spam… please >.<

i tried out 2 guestbook widgets today, and neither wanted to work.. i don’t know.. is it just me or is php so gay?! i frikin hate how it comes up with errors every so often, everytime i edit something. grrrz

after studying and working out where the hell did my web space all get chopped up, i’ve made alot of changes. the old pocoyo blog is gone, along with the final fantasy guild website, and the different layouts i had hidden, and the avatars and banners i had, which were just sitting there taking up valuable space. after i backed up the whole site, i’m back to 75mb out of possible 100mb… i should really get an upgrade. wheres twirp?!

i’ve also started dishing out the freebies, such as this lovely cookie – i mean signature:

(and also this uber nub doodle)